Aaron is 3 months

I never expected to have thumb sucking be a victory.
We blessed Aaron at the first of the month

Well it has been over a month since I last posted. Life is crazy busy which is why this post took me a month to write. Last Tuesday Aaron turned 3 months. He is now 13 pounds even. He has been gaining weight better (He has had a couple bad weeks but he has been sick). Who thought that when he was over 9 lbs. at birth that we would worry about his weight. He makes eye contact smiles and laughs. He is such a joy. He is such a calm happy baby. He gets stronger everyday. Aaron has kept us on our toes for certain. They say that with each child a mother gets a new degree in parenting I feel like with Aaron I am getting a new education weekly (not so much a degree because I also feel like I am failing). It amazes me how much love and worry a mother can have. This little man makes me reflect on how my own mother must have felt. Sunday morning and Monday morning Aaron had a feed without "clicking" (his click is caused by loosing suction). Usually he clicks about as often as he swallows. He had never even had a feed without clicking so things are looking up. Since I had Aaron, well really since I got pregnant I have had some fear some sometimes overwhelming anxiety about him. I would keep trying to tell myself that it was hormones or what not but the fear wouldn't leave it was like this dark shadow always there. Wednesday I found out what it was. We had a specialist appointment in Calgary. His Dr. found a whole in his heart this causes an increased blood flow to through right side of his heart . Because of the increased flow and the fact that it has to work harder the right side is slightly larger. He also has a "click" due to the fact that the pulmonary valve exiting his heart doesn't open all the way. (I think I will call him Clicky from now on.) The valve has created balance for his heart as it controls or restricts the excess blood flow from the whole. So his body has created its own " delicate balance". Oh how my Heavenly Father loves us. The whole he has is the kind less likely to close on his own, but because of the valve this is also a blessing. So Aaron is OK. I asked the doctor "so he's fine?" and he said "so he's OK". We will take him to the specialist every 3 months and keep on eye on things but he is OK.